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Hey guys, i would LOVE it if you bought some shirts, they are like 10 bucks, and flippin' sweet styles. Do it, i dare you! And, if it makes you feel better, for every five sales i make, i get a free t-shirt, and that ROCKS!Current Mood:  shoppin' Current Music: lalala |
So yesterday went well i hope, i had a good time, and i love my friends sooo much! I was slightly dissapointed that not everyone could go, but oh well, i see them everyday anyways. So today im going to the beach with alyssa and my sister, but no one seems to want to wake up so we can go. And shopping afterwards, except now allyssa doesnt want to go shopping anymore, so she probably wont come with us. My mother is gonna transfer some money into my bank account for my birthday present, because im saving for a laptop. Funny, i kinda wanted this day to go my way, and so far, its not happening. But, beggers cant be chosers, i'm eatin' my fruity pebbles and waiting for the family to get ready. What can i be but happy?Current Mood:  slightly perturbed Current Music: Riddlin' Kids- I feel fine |
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready for you
Lover alone without love.
ROAR! Im'a piranha :) So, as a quick recap of what i've been up to lately:
-Started Meditating again
-Religously listening to the Shins
-Started to focus on my beliefs
-Focused more on art and my future
-Did my homework, like twice this week :)
-Danced
-Running for V.P. of Key
-Decided i want a boyfriend that won't break me
-Bought sexy undergarments (so much fun!)
-Breathed more
-Stressed less
-Hoped more
-Cried less
- Loved myself because I am fucking alive, and i'm fucking alright.
hell yea baby.Current Mood:  Hehe Current Music: Chick Music |
Take the quiz: "What does your birth month reveal about you?"
March
Attractive personality.sexy. Affectionate.Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented.Loves special things. Moody.
Take the quiz: "What kind of underwear are you?"
G String!
Your a sexy, wild girl who ,likes to have a good time!
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Heck yes! A three day weekend! I'm lovin' it :) And, an added bonus, my mother doesnt come home until tomarrow, double score. Tonight i'ma gonna go out with my girls, then we are coming back home and pretending life doesn't exist outside of our garden walls. Siddartha is due this week, i really need to start to do that. Eek, not cool. Seriuosly. I wish i could stay home all day and paint and play with my toys, and have get togethers with my friends. Like every other 3 year old in the world. Oh yea, Missy and i have found an amazingly catchy song! i downloaded it from limewire, and i didnt knwo what it was, but i heard it on my mp3 player and fell in love.
Modern Chemistry
I believe in medication and i believe in therapy
and i believe in crystal light
'cause i believe in me yeah
it's so uplifting
fuck yeah
i barely have motivation
they say i suffer from a lack of seratonin synapses
they happen too
infrequently for me to be functioning properly
i took the pills i took the advice the panic stopped
but i'm still not right
racing thoughts and wasted time
it's the same old story-line
this is my nursery rhyme and it goes:
i believe in medication and i believe in therapy
and i believe in crystal light
'cause i believe in me yeah
it's so uplifting
fuck yeah
i'm barely off the medication
and now the walls are closing in again
i can't breathe and i can't bleed
will you be my alibi?
tell them that i truly tried to give in?Current Mood:  eek! Current Music: Modern Chemistry |
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Oh gosh, i dont feel very happy right now. I just watched anastasia, great movie seriously, missy will have my back on that one. :) Arg, i want to take another shower. Water is my friend. Today wa the most beautiful day i have ever seen. And i ahvtn had a scary moment yet today. So i think im going to test myself and lay down outside for a litle while. Just looking at the stars. The sky is breathe taking during the winter time. If i could give all my dreams up, all my hopes, all my aspirations, and all my romances, i know id let myself have much more than i have right now. But who needs more, when i have dreams? I dont want to come back down from the icy heights where clouds fly free.
Feb. 10th, 2005 @ 06:52 pm
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i am in love with The Shins, omg, i am i am i am. seriously. its absolutly amazing stuff. Dani, d/l some stuff, i promise they're great :)
You tested
your metal
of doe's skin
and petals
while kissing
the lipless
who bleed all the sweetness away
Feb. 9th, 2005 @ 04:13 pm
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okay, this is my last entry. I think my parents have been going through my computor, so now its time to clean it out, and make it parent-safe with tons of locks. yay for locks. My mind is now closing, you wont see this side of me anymore i guess. Sorry, love you@!!!
Feb. 7th, 2005 @ 08:18 pm
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Gosh gollee gee, im going to miss key meeting tonight again because i have to visit the shrink for my second diagnosis test, by a much more reputible psychiatrist. I'm slightly more afraid this time, ebcause that means whatever he says has to be true. I hope Annie is right about all of this, and i'm just a teenageer liek everyone else. Wishful thinking i suppose, but all i can think of right now are wishes. I wish i coudl get away from the world for a bit. I wish i was normal. I wish i could breathe better. I wish i knew how to love. Maybe this doctor will prescribe the magic pill to make it all go away. Ms. Holz cracked me up today. She wants to "keep me on track." I guess im not the kind fo person who like to ride on track. Maybe i shouldn't have told her about my attention disorder, but i ahve a feeling no matter what i woudl have gotten that speech. OKay, enough self pity and headache for one day. Hehe, my shirt was a total hit today, haha, so i guess that means ill get to make more. :) yay! i had hoped it wouldnt be hard to sew, and it wasnt. But that just goes to show that people admire things they dnt know anyhting about, even if it is as simple as sewing a line. Hehe, i love my friends. I love Jay even though he called me a "soon-to-be-slut" gr..... i called him an asshole though, but slut was pushing it a bit. I AM NOT A SLUT! I have different morals and as such, he ahs no right to judge them. Gr.. i feel like being a lion today.aybe ill bite the shrinks head off. I alwasy think of smartass remarks to everyhting he says, i jsut never say them cuz then he'll think i am crazy. I alwyas do my hair real nice,a dn dress nice, adn smell nice before i go, because then i feel more sane.
Feb. 7th, 2005 @ 03:44 pm
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My heart is beating a million times an hour and my mind cant seem to catch up. And im afraid what will happen when it does. I go to my new shrink this week, same one as you Sim! So i will either learn that i am def. bipolar, or it's something else. My mother tried to talk me out of going. She can be so hypocritical sometimes. First, she forces me to be tested and gets the answer out of the lady that she wants to hear. Then she has the audacity to say that " i seem stable right now and it costs a lot to go." WTF! If she thinks she is going to put me on meds and not have me tested by someone who has most of their braincells then she has another thing coming! Im sick of feeling like everything i think and feel is controlled by a chemical inbalence in my body. And im afriad of what i will be liek on meds. Only time will tell, as of right now i have more important things to worry about. Like how i am going to get an entire book read and the journal done for it in one day. Its not that i have been procrastinating like usual, but i relaly have had no time to do it. i ahve no time for anyhting, and my mother isnt helping the matter. I jsut want to be happy, thats all there is to it. There is a quote from the bok we ahve to read, that i cant remember word for word, but you'll get the gist of it " the only way to survive terror is by ducking, and forgetting; by acknologing it, we only kill ourselves" okay that wasnt even close, but it had the same idea. Anywyas, i like the book so far. it has a lot of philosophy that of course im in love with :)
Feb. 2nd, 2005 @ 05:34 pm
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